My mind is turning round......

............................ everyday i see my love one smile. from sorrowness they own, to a happiness they earn. im so happy for them.
I may be seen strong and always smiling, but deep inside me, ................... i am weak when it comes to this..... i know i cant own u like how he own you. Never will i ever get to own u. Its just my fantasy having a person like you. Im sorry if my presence 'earthquaked' ur relationship.
I love you like i own you but actually im not. It's just what i feel but not the fact. Im sorry if i keep making you mad and i know whatever i do will summon tension in you. Im sorry for keep on whinning and stuff. But it just me. Its just the way that i wanna interpret that i love you. I cant do anything to prove it, neither can i say it out loud. I appreciate everything you do for me. And i know everything that u do is truthful. I know u are my dear.............


But.............. since i came into the picture, its hard for you. U need to take care of both heart, not wanting to hurt anyone. Even if i am, i will just pretend nothing happen, cause i know where i stand. I know where i stand...........................

Sometimes i just think i should leave you and never come back. So that i won't ruin anything between u and ur partner. U will lead a better life without even bother to care for me. But i CAN'T!!!!!
I really CAN'T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love you with all my heart. I really dont know how to prove it anymore. U are a great one, i never ever regret having you by my side. NEVER WILL I EVER REGRET.

People were right bout happiness. They come in short. They let be happy for sometime and suddenly the happiness is gone, forever.

AAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I dont know what to do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I just love you SO FUCKING MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :'(

What I AM

Life have been going greatly. Love the company i with those people. Each and everyone have their own uniqueness. CRACKING SUPER DUPER CRAPPY JOKE is in their blood. I LOVE THOSE PEOPLE!! Can't imagine how my life will be without them........................... sorrowness, no one to shere my feelings, no 1 to love me like how i receive it now.



30T & TMC
Bunch of very cute people. Have their own personality, for siti, a very strong soulfull girl. Defend anyone who she love. Beware people. She's dangerous. TRUST ME!! DONT MESS WITH HER.Kane and Halim, both have almost similar personality. VERY MANJE. very soft spoken. dare not to fight back. very entertaining. Hakim, the sarcastic boy but yet very nice. he's like siti. SO AGAIN BEWARE OF THIS KID. OUCH!!!! yanie, 1 thing to describe, FUNNY!!! very energetic girl. mira the PINCABLE GIRL. i love to pince her!!!!! nas, very soft spoken too but very cute. hehe. azura, CRAPPY!!!!!!! FUNNYY!! when she's with me she's crap. hahahahahahahahahahahah!! dinie HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! dinie more worse, gonna have stomach ulcer when with her. her joke i tell you FUNNYYYY!!!! HAHAHAHAHAH.


MY MR CHOREOGRAPHER AND FHUNKIE STYLERZ
Isaac, the very nice guy, he is very nice guy. VERY OKAY!! too nice until people take advantage. poor him. F*CK people who think that he can be bully. u dont know how the people around him. and his bf OMG, very scary!!!! to me lahhh. maybe the face but i think he's a nice guy. Hope to see him and try talking to him. If im not scared lah. HAHAHA. kikin, OMG!!! THIS GIRL I TELL YOU VERY CUTE GILEEERRRR EHHHHH!! manje giler. heheheheheheheheheheh. Fun to be with her. Her cousin MASH also best okay!!! KAK Z, KAK SERI AND JON, ETC, undescribable, BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.



VOGUELICIOUS
*FAINTING* Vogue giler and very entertaining. VERY CUTE EHH DORANG. i dnt know y these haters have so much to hate bout them? u guys got something against them???? HUH!!!!!! NB!!!!!!!!



I JUST LOVE THESE PEOPLE LAH!!!!!!!!! DONT WANNA LOSE THEM!!!!!!!! I WONT LET ANYONE PULL THEM AWAY FROM ME OKAY!!!!!!



Baby!!!! I love you.



Mwaaahhhh.

A THOUSAND APOLOGIES.....

.................... how stupid can i be?!! how stupid of me. isnt 1 just enough? being love and was given everything that i need. yet, i make em sad AGAIN!! Thinking what had happen..........


............
........... im sorry honey.
im really am sorry... :'(
i didnt mean to hurt you again and again.
its just my stupidity.
i do appreciate what u did for me. I REALLY DO!!!
i love you with all my heart. OMG!!! I REALLY DO!!!!!!! FOR GOODNESS SAKE I DO PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but sometimes everybody make mistake.
but for me, the mistake that ive aint forgivable. said once said twice.


u said that u forgive me, but i dont think u forgive me fully.
i know its hard for u to trust me fully.
:'(
i just have to slowly earn ur trust back. even if it takes months.
i dont care hoe long as long as u trust me again.


I didnt play behind ur back. there's no othere people that u do not know. everyone that i msg, i tell u. cos i dont want to keep a secret. there's no secret between us rite? but everytime i told u whoever msg, u started turning down. what should i do? there's nothing that u do not know bout me. u knew everything.


day by day i pray that each day goes well together for u and me without any fighting going on.


this i promise you. i wont fling around anymore.i'll focus myself upon you. *THOSE WHO READ THIS PLEASE BE MY WITNESS!! im doing this for you.............................. cos............ ily!!!!!!


im sorry again for causing too much havock in ur life.
i'll gain ur trust, i'll do anything that u want me to.
I L Y
baby i love you always... :'(


im sorry.

ISSSHHHH!!!!!

ISSHHHH!!! So bored at home. Have been sitting at home for 2 days already. Wanted to go out but sort of lazy. IM HUNGRYYY!!! And im lazy again to go cook some food. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!! Whatever lahh fadh..


Sunday went to ZOUK. There's some event going on. ROMP 4 Dance competition. It was awesome okay. Voguelicious was sexy and hot. BUT THEY DIDN'T WIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STUPID SIA THE JUDGES!!! racists okay 1 the judges especially the person whose name is patrick. URGHH!!! He doesnt like gays and those 'vogue' dancing. WTFFFF!!!!! If u dont appreciate dancing of all genre then dont be a judge!!!!!!
i swear i feel like slaaping ur face with my boots!!!!!! i do really................
Voguelicious can ace a placing you know if u watch how they dance.....urgh!!!
Muke mintak kene puuuuuuuuuummmmmmppppp jee. i really enjoy my day with isaac, izzy, luke, jazz, sri, fadlie, siti and naz. I DO OKAY PEOPLE... With their laughter and jokes.. :'( Im so missing them already.........



& & to you. stop bad mouthing please. pity him. already too much problem burden him. i really pity him. please STOP IT!!! he didnt abandon anyone. i know!! i was with him most of the time and i knoe he didnt abandon even 1 bit. he praises u up high and this what he gets in return. u must be 1 person who doesnt appreciate!! urgh. im so hating you!!!!!! and me pulling hin away from you guys. i dont think so. now u want to accuse me of pulling him away from u? SHUT UP OKAY!! SAY NO MORE!! now again i feel like slapping your face with my boots. da salah nak belit2. stop it ehh i tell you!! URGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


i miss my class mate already........... cant wait for this friday class bbq. OMG!!!! SO GOING TO ENJOY WITH THEM.!!!!! wanna get DRUNK!!! But i cant get too drunk. Afraid that i might do stupid things. HAHHA!! Have to think of the 1 i love and the 1 i dont want to lose. ;)

i love my ado804q
i love 30T
i love TMC (tanah merah country club? PFFFTTT!!!! watch out sia pakcik!!!)
i love voguelicious
i love KIKIN, KAK Z, FIS, ISAAC*
baby, i love you lahh. MWAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!



mwaaahhh!!!!! I SAYANG YOU!!!

sicko!

omg, im sick!! sick sick sick!! running nose, coughing, fever and asthma. urgh. combo!!!!!!! so sick that i cant perform my usual routines normally. haiyo. hate being sick sey.


n i miss you!!!!!!!


school's over. finally!!!!!
relax, vacation. (as if)
projects finally completed.
test over (dnt really confident)


CANT WAIT FOR MY DEAREST CLASS CHALET!!!
3 DAYS 2 NITES!!
PARTY ALL NITE LONG.
BUT CANT DRINK TOO MUCH!!!!!!!!! URGH!!
SOMEBODY HAVE HIS EYES SET ON ME...
I DONT KNOW HOW.........BUT LOVE YOU....

update again soon. tired lahhhh!!!

URRGGGGHHH!!!!

I MISS YOU!!!!! WHERE HAVE YOU GONE TO??? :'(
SCHOOL SUCKS!!
PROJECT URGH!!!
BUT MUST DO!!
I DONT WANT TO DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:'(



I MISS MDIS COMPETITION!!!!
those people that i met and all. haizzz. really miss those people. ella and her fiends, voguelicious, kak z, azura, anna, bee, dydy.. and semue lahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

these are some of the pictures.



30T. mwaaahhh!!

kak z. mwaahhhh!!

30T and Voguelicious camwhore'ing.(don't know how to spell)



baby, misses to you. :'(