speech-less

thanks khai for spending the time with me just now. really had fun since the last time we went out together. thanks for helping me with my project. and dnt worry, i'll help u back k?

i want to dance again...
i want to dance again...
pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeee...
i wanted to...

i need to go for an interview at sentosa this thursday at 3 pm. someone please accompany me please... im scared... i takot i tak dapat kerje... i really want the job... i dont care if the people whatever... i just need a job... to support myself... money to spend on myself, my cigarette... i didnt manage to pamper myself... once in a while its okay... my body need new shirts... wanna buy clothes at tampines mall...
....... urgh!!!! mcm da tue ader banyak problem...
haizzzzzzzzzz...

fadh is DEAD

dancing is what i want to do the most. but now i cant. i cant!!! :'(
i like what i do. and i dnt like how u phrase ur words.. it hurts me emotional.. u look down on what i can do.. u look down on what i achieve.. im not u u know. i lead my life, ure just supporting me financially.. im sorry but i have to say this.. y cant u guys leave me alone and let me do what i like to do, DANCING!! i dont take drugs, i dnt have tattoos. i dnt beat people up. i just dance.. HARMLESS!! WHAT ELSE U WANT ME TO DO?? Im doing well in schooling!! infact dancing didnt even affect my studies.. my teacher and friends support what im doing.. why cant u guys??!!! :'(
I FELT DEMORALISED!! D E M O R A L I S E D. U GUYS GET IT??!!sometimes i just feel that ure biased toward all of ur children.. whatever i do is a sin.. im trying to be better than the last time iam.. and now no more problem right?? u let him do what he likes, but me?? i sometime wish that im not ur son......................................... :'(



fake!! i may be laughing and crapping, but inside, its rotting fast..
im sorry Unique Desire..
fadh cant perform with u guys anymore..
im going to miss u guys alot.. those laughter we had.. remember?
it brings me to the hard time we had and the fun time we had together.. we're so close like siblings.. now it ends here for me.. it ends as it was about to get happier..
i love u guys alot.. and it may takes time till i meet u guys again..
thanks for all those momment we had..
its so precious.. afez,alyv,siti,hakim,halim,kane,tamara,faizah,
fadh mintak maaf kalu fadh ader termarah atau pun termaki.. im sorry.. fadh mintak maaf sebab fadh tak boleh joget ngn korang.. fadh nak sangat joget ngn krng but then ......................... i just love u guys............. :'( :'(




i love you dear.. :'(

PAIN!!

fck!!!! problems here and there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! damn it!!!!!!!!! i was just wanted to help, but ........... fine then!!!! anybody got a problem, dnt have to share!!!!!!!! cos im always adding to people problem!!!!! PFFFFFFTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!

POISON.

please someone.... just poison me.... letme die. so that i won't burden my family.... i know im the oldest.... i keep asking them for money.... but im under their responsibility....
NOW.... i feel useless, i felt a huge burden to them....

they once said, do what u like to do....
im doing what i like....
DANCING....
art and designing is already my natural-born talent....
i wanna dance....
YES!!! dance doesnt earn me anything for now....
but its the feeling that counts....
i feel good performing.... makes people happy....
see what i can do....
i learn alot....
and now it comes to an end....
what i have been learning....


papa isnt fair....
adik like soccer so much.... papa loves soccer too....
that doesnt earn him anything too....
so?
y did he buy him all the jerseys, the boots that cost amost a hundreds?
papa only let anyone to do things that he likes....

im not u please laaaaa....
im myself....
yes im ur responsibilty....
but must my life be given to u to lead?
NO!!!!
yes i do sometimes fight back when quarel
but im stating the fact....

so what if i didnt earn anything...................

now i need a job!!
a part-time....
im schooling and i need part-time....
life as an older brother really stink...................
im just sick and tired of myself....

IM SO GOING TO MISS 30T, TMC AND ESPECIALLY UNIQUE DESIRES WHO HAVE BEEN WTH ME EVEN FOR A WEEK.... ITS NOT HOW LONG WE MET, ITS THE BONDING WE'VE MADE.... I LOVE YOU GUYS INDIVIDUALLY SINCERELY....
THE LAUGHTER, THE JOKES THAT WE MADE AND OUR CRAPNESS....
THINKING OF THESE MAKE ME CRY GUYS.... IT REALLY DOES....
I JUST HOPE I CAN PERFORM WITH U GUYS AGAIN AND AGAIN.... BUT .....
:'(

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MEOW!!!

I LOVE UNIQUE DESIRE PEOPLE. LIKE A LOT OKAY!! FUN BUNCH OF PEOPLE.. NEVER FAILD TO MAKE ME LAUGH!!! HAHA!! PRAC WAS FUN JUST NOW. NOW SEE WHAT AFEZ, MY TWINNY CAN DO.... WANNA SEE?



NOW SEE!!!







NOW!! HOW BOUT THAT??!! IM SO PROUD OF MY SISTER HERE!! HAHA!! AND FAIZAHH CAN DO IT TOO!! OMG!!! ALYV CAN DO SPLIT ALREADY!!! SO PROUD OF MY SECOND SISTER!! HAHA!!!!!!!

I HATE CATS WHO COPY ME!!
*HISSSSSSS*

FADHLI'S DOMINATION. (pfffftttt!!!!)

Ouhhh. just come back from Italy yeah. With my beloved Unique Desire crew!! (YELATU KAU!!) Went for reheasal at outram area. damn!! the flooring sucks sia. we dance and our shoe suddenly become super frictional. shit kan? had lots of fun wth hakim, ella, siti and my 2 twinny, alyv and hafiz. ahaaahh!!

i punyer minyak wangi peach da nak habes sia!!!!!!! thanks to people who called it MINYAK ANGIN!!!! hahhahah.. u guys knw who are u guys. mwaaahhhh.. love u guys...

and FINALLY!!! HOW ABOUT A ROUND OF APPLAUSE TO SITI RAHMAH FOR BEING ATTACHD FOR LIKE THE HW MANY TIMES. HAHAHAHHA!! GOOD LUCK!!! STAY LONGER TAU!!!! DOA ABANG TERKABUL TAU... HAHAHA. BRING UR GUY CME MEET US LAAAAAAAAAAA!!! HAHAHAHHA

anyway.. going to have our show at united square at Novena. (where is united square sia??!!!) im a bit dumb. bear wth it. me, hakim, kane, hafiz, alyv, ella and faizahh is performing. OMG!! I CANT WAIT FUCK!!! hahah..

i miss my bantal busuk. the whole day i didnt pelok my bantal. y? MAMA GO AND CUCI SIA!!! now it smell so nice. peje mama tu tau. i love her anyway.

im in love wth this song, KEMBALI PULANG BY KANGEN BAND.
HAIYA.. so sweet the song.. dedicated to someone..*buncit*ahhhahhh..

i should be going to BATU BELAH BATU BERTANGKUP!!!!! I kempunan sushi!!!! :'( i wanna cry. i knw its kental. but who understand my craving???????? :'(...................................

life is better now. no more crying, no more misunderstanding. u knw i knw. u knw what is best and im glad ure back again....
i cant ignore u.. the more i try, the more it bring me to u....
whatever happens, never leave. u knw that we are fated......
no use of u or me leaving, cos we knw we end up CLOSER............ love dear.....

ITS BACK!!!!

TMC IS BACK!! WE WENT TO UNITED KINGDOM ACTUALLY FOR A CRUISE YEAH?!! NOW WE ARE BACK!! THE MAIN 5 DANCERS OF 30T!! WE MAKE YOU PROUD OKAY? INSYA ALLAH!!




Forgiving is a nice thing to receive when u are forgiven in whatever u do. even if ure mistake is a big one.......

Poker - Face.

LADY GAGA!!! OMG!!! I LOVE HER!!!
HER IMAGE, HER PERSONALITY, HER CHARISMA...
SHE'S THE LADY GAGA...
AND THE ONLY GAGA...
LOVE IT...
HAHA!!


Im sick.. i cant dance well.. omg!! go away sickness..
i want to dance..
i have to pay 38 for the fucking inhalers.
Lots of phglem inside.
HARD TO BREATHE.
I NEED OXYGEN...
OMG!!
I CAN LIKE BUY A LOT OF FOOD SEY!!!
SHITTTTT!!!


I LOVE UNIQUE DESIRES...
Different people from different group combine to 1..
cool kan?
its gonna be a blast!!
Come and watch us on 24 june at United Square.


When can i have my sushi...
:'(
BATU BELAH BATU BERTANGKUP, MAKAN LAH AKU,
TELANLAH AKU,
AKU KEMPUNAN SUSHI..
:'(
I think i should just forget it lahh...
buang maser je berangan.
sudahlah..................................................................................................................................................................



im sleepy.. i wanna drink can please..
i wanna get drunk..
forget about everything..
can please??
i wanna enjoy myself..


im shortage of bangles
:'(
my bangly!!
fadlie give it back to me..
they miss me, i can hear them crying for me..
give it back please????



po po po pokerface, po po pokerface..................................................

A change man Now

i think that u are a change man now. Im confident bout that, i know u want me back. But i cant.. theres always a reason for my say. U know that right? I really hope u have change now. Its good for you little boy. Learn to love someone, treasure him, treasure him like how u treasure you love ones. U will be loved, i bet you. Stop flirting. Cos the eye-candy outside can be deceiving.. Trust me.. da kene skali serik kan? hmm?

and grudges are a no more.. no oh okay. :D

I just pray hard that you will find someone like me? HAHA. who have a buttercup hair? HAHA.
relax dear boy. u got your friends, family...

smile ya?.........



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to someone ya?
ilysm

I CRY..

You need to let things go..
I know, u tell me so..
I've been through hell..
To break the spell..

Why did i ever let you slip away..
Can't stand another day wothout you..
Without the feelings..
I once knew..

I cry silently..
I cry inside of me..
I cry hopelessly..
'cause i know i'l never breathe your love again..

I cry 'cause you're not here me..
'cause im lonely as i can be..
I cry hopelessly..
'cause i know i'l never breathe your love again..

If i could have you back tomorrow..
If i could lose the pain and sorrow..
I would just do anything..
To make you see, still love me..

IM SO SO TIRED.... misses

Ive been so tired lately. why? i dont know myself. im so restless. so tired, always hungry. eat alot okay. but luckily i have a high body metabolism. couldnt get fat. still lean and slim. hahah. life is okay fun. now getting ready for next performance at United Square(where the hell is it located?!!) as a guest performer in 3 weeks time. will be performing with afez vogue, alyv vogue and fadlie vogue. 4 people only. haizzz. hope they can co-operate........


Im so wanting to eat sushi tau. :'( have been wanting it. SSSSSSSSOOOOOOOO MMMMUUUUCCCCCHHH!!!! Sushi is my sex. i got no time lahh to go buy.... haiiizzzzzzz... i dont care!!! i wanna go buy this saturday!!!!! if iam not able to find it, i wont be talking to anyone!!!....... hmmmppphhhh!!!!
I WANNA KILL MR DANNY!!!!
he make me jealous... cos yesterday, he ate sushi!!!!!!
MR DANNY, BE CAREFUL!!!
im watching you...... hehe... ;)

Iam missing so much people right now. especially my mom and you. awwwwww.. sweet kan?
i really do okay mak.....


i wanna buy new shoe, new clothes, eat at sakae sushi or wherever laaaa.. as i got a lot of money inside my pocket... 800 will be coming in 2 months time. -.- im working.... no one should know bout it.......... its a bad job...................:'(




NO LAH!!! its my bursary lahh... hahah. crazy people......




I MISS HANGING OUT AT STARBUCK JURONG POINT LAST TIME!!!
I MISS HANGING OUT WITH KHAIFLUX!!!
ME AND KAIFLUX ARE GOODFRIENDS, WE DO EVERYTHING TOGETHER, BUY STUFF TOGETHER....
EVEN CALLED US GAY COUPLE IN CLASS.
SO WHAT??
KAI!!!!!!!! LETS GO SHOPPING AND LEPAS PENAT, GO SPINELLI HEEREN AND LEPAK!!! LINA AND DIYANAH PLEASSSSSSSSSSSEEEEEEEEEEE JOIN US!!!! GONNA BE FUN KAN!!! OMG!!!!!! CANT WAIT!!!!!


WANNA BUY A LOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT OF SINGLET AT TOPSHOP!!!
...................random lah.........................


Klah... i wanna go eat now.haha. mwaahhhh!!! take care. I MISS YOU!!
MWWWAAAAHHH!!!!