it saddens me but its okay :D

it saddens me knowing i cant perform for this saturday competition... haizz... but its okay... look on the bright side... kane is going to perform... it potrays me... i craft him to be better... i hope you wont dissapoint me okay dear?... but its fun dancing for a while... its okay really... hehe...

somebody... please date me out and bring me to eat sushi... please... i have been craving sushi for a long time... :'( please...
:'( :'(.................

im sleepy!!!

MURDER MURDER!!

i feel like murdering evryone!!!!!! is it so hard to ask u guys to have a full squad? FUCK!!!!!!!! IM FEEL LIKE SLAPPING YOU GUYS HARD ON THE FACE..... TAK SEDAR KE APER? so unappreciative bunch of fuckers!!!! IM REALLY PISSED. CANT U GUYS AT LEAST APPRECIATE A LITTLE? JUST A LITTLE!! AM NOT TALKING TO ANYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! URGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IM SO LOSING HOPE AND GIVE UP..

Everything that i do is a sin, everything that i say is wrong. what am i suppose to do?!! just sealed my mouth? and dnt say anything when it comes to defending. i think i should do that. making myself look stupid and SUPER DUMB!!! how bout that? i think i should do that. answer only when question. and all the time, dnt speak a word......

people can scold me but i cant scold others. what the fuck. its is fair for u people right? then be my guest and scold me all u want. i will then shut my mouth all the way. satisfy ur everything...!!!!!!

evrything that i do is a problem for everyone..... might as well i just dissapear rite? but if i dissapear. u guys got no one to scold rite???!!!!!

URGH!!!!!! GETTING ON MY NERVE!!!!!!!
FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!

got no mood to talk to anyone.....!!!!!
really, dnt talk to me.
hate it!!!!!

KANE RAYNARD GOH RONG WEI.

kane, im so proud of you. in everything u do. u do listen to me and do what i told u to do. u always make me proud and make me smile. u dnt have to be sorry.... thers always good behind things happening. abang always marah because i want u to be the best. even better than me in fact. u are the elite dancer. and that title wont be taken away and i wont let them happen. u are still in and is 1 of the best. its just matter of time before u'l be back. we'l wait for you.

no matter what. i make u proud. i make u cry seeing us. cry not of dissapointed but tears of joyment, happiness. i will assure u that. me being that co-leader, will make the group as u want them to be.

dnt blame urself for things that happen. ur parents are ur main priority. and thats it. make them proud with ur studies and always remeber we are behind u always. make ur parents trust u first once again. u lose us, no big deal, u lose them, u suffers.

u understand what abang is trying to say. stay strong. and I MAKE U PROUD!!!

WE LOVE YOU AND WE MISSES U....
GO KANE GOH.
ABANG LOVES YOU...
I STILL DO HAVE HOPE ON YOU....
COME BACK SOON DEAREST.......



MWAAAHHHH!!!

Boyfriend..

im tired.... tired of whatever is happening.... i feel like overdosing myself.... haizzz.... CHEY!!! like real.... im okay lah....
im just tired from teaching....
arent u guys tired from repeating the same routine?
im tired....!!!!
please give me 1 PERFECT 1 please....
im having asthma attack now.............


Im going to the pinkdot.SG tomorrow. dont have pink clothes, so i just wear what i like.... gonna be there, lepak2, have fun with people. hehe. cant wait. OMG!!! my feet is killing me. its been a long time since i wore my boots. URGH!! now my feet hurts. wanna wear slipper for tmrw uh.... fed up uhh....


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now u feels like how i use to be feeling quite long time ago....
deprssion? no one to pour out ur feeling? nahhhhh....
i suffered tremendous one okay. much much much more than how are u feeling rite now?
isnt it nice??
hahahahhaha....
sweet little revenge....
fake mouth and fake evrything, cos i can fake much more than you do. trust me....
wanting me back??? hmmm.... lemme think....
i think i'll give u 1 more chance okay?
LIKKKKEEEEE NNNNOOOOTTTTTT!!!!!!!!
im a stronger man now, not that 'ooohhhhh fadhli so soft hearted'
maybe some OTHER person can make me soft but not u anymore.
im not falling for it anymore....
i have learn ur 'techniques and tac tics and the way of ur game'....
boohhooo too bad....
are u kidding me that ure not attchd for a very long time?
I DONT THINK SO....
a person like you never had enough....
sweet little stuff....
im sweeter....
what a waste of time having you. urgh!!!!
i THINK I DESERVE BETTER ONES!!!!
than you....
u worthless....
like PUSSYCAT DOLLS SONG TITLE, I DONT NEED A MAN!
but infact i need. to take care of me....
not to spend on me but a listening ears to me, and a security where i feel secure whenever unknown approaches.... and im already feeling it.
i feel appreciated....
tsk tsk tsk.
these people should be send to heaven yeah?
those time still lingers around, but the latest one is better....
MUCH MUCH BETTER I TELL YOU....
be plastic all you want, i can be SUPER LATEX....
hahhahahah....

chris crocker;RESPECT THE PRETTY PEOPLE.
only pretty people fuck with preety people....
who'd lied to you,
that i give a damn....
*wink*

hey hey hey hey, hey hey hey hey, heyyyyyyyyyyyyyyye, GOODBYE!!



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I LOVE THE PEOPLE AROUND ME!!
wanna be bitchy, think twice...
mwaaahhhhh!!!!!


i live it up highly now without u but you.mwaaahhhh!!!

i got you stupiding..

im bored. school was fun. short school time now. weeks pass so fast. haha. saturday going to clark quay, pinkdot.sg. dont really know what is it. well just go. heeeee. im out of word.... love people LOVE. spread the love...... mwaaaahhhh.


wink.

BANGS!!

Fuck!!! I wanted to cut off my fringe. to shorten it. in the end it looks like bang if not push side. fuck!! now i look like pekan from BATU BELAH BATU BERTANGKUP. -.-

life was great. 30T is having a GREAT time being bullied by me. haha, Stay with me guys, stand me for sometime. i just want them to be as good as me and bla bla bla.

Cool kan? 30T girls can do split, can do leg lift.
Guys? Kane still practicing.
Me? Cant touch the ground. -.-
cute perh? NOT!!

Got disturb by a few of guys just now at RP. WTF. Because what i do split? and i wore thighs? And 1 of them ask fr my number. peje. Im not a janatn rolling okay? i repeat. AM NOT!!!

learn a few breaking from syazwan. haha. best lah. i just discover things that i dont even know. wanna be a b-boy lah. haha. just trying to be versatyle. can do breaking, top-rock, vogueing bla bla bla. still in the process of learning.

300 GONE TO PAYING FINES WHICH I CAN USE THE MONEY TO BUY NEW SHOES AND CLOTHES AND WHATEVER LAH.............

i wanna MAKE ALL GIRLS IN 30T PIERCE THEIR BELLY BUTTONS!!!! I DONT CARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND GUYS HAVE TO DO TATTOO!!!! AND I DONT CARE TOO!!!!!!!!!!!

guess what? i cut isaac's fringe. BANGS!!!!!!! HAHA. HE LOOK FUNNY.... HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA........ BUT VERY CUTE... HAHAHAHAHA.... CANT STOP LAUGHING THOUGH......... for a change, he doesnt have that stupid curl-all-over-the-place side fringe......

dalah im tired tau..from all today's activity....
update soon.



mwaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!! love u...

JUST MY LUCK

GUESS WHAT??
I GOT FINED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK!!!!
NOW NEED TO PAY. HAIYO.
STOOPID FADHLI.... HAIYO..
ANYONE.......
HELLO....
HELP ME PLESEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE........
:'(

clap clap clap.

Got fine. 300 bucks for throwing cigarette bud on public. what the fuck! haizz. now im saving up money to pay my fine. urgh. How about around of applause to fadhli, cos he finally save money!!! pfft! fucked up.........

if tmomorrow, when i check the axs machine for my fine, if it appears, i have to pay lah. if not then alhamduliliah, they give me chance. but i doubt they gonna give me chance. haiiiiizzzzzz.....

RANDOM SAY.
i am in a rdelationship because i love someone not because i want anyone to sex me. hahaha.


im tired, im feeling sick.
i wanna watch x-men, The origin!!
anybody...
wanna bring me out to watch movie??
hehe..

i miss you.:'(

28.12.2008 - 02. 05. 2009

it all ends today..... we end everything. its my fault. for having other people. but u knw urself that even though how hard i try to love others, u still the one i love the most..... u never believe what i said. u never believe anything. For 4 long months, i waited for you. I do everything that i can to stay. i Pour all my love to you. Every bit of it. Not an inch left out......... but its too late.



From the day we met, i knew u were never mine. AND will never be mine. Haiz. But i keep on going bcus i TRUELY loves you. I dont care what people wanna say. Cause whats important is you!!!! I never found or never been treated like this before. Why is it so hard when i tried to leave u or u leaving me? ure so addictive....


Now it end with tears. not with joy. i cant ask u to want me back. u already had chosen ur path. and u want it that way then i respect ur decision. U deserve someone like ur own, but not me. im not a good person. im a burden to u, im demanding and u cant keep up with that..................


im sorry for the fucking thing that i have done. i think might as well u just erase me off from ur mind. so that the burden wouldnt be on u anymore. if i ever had a relationship any sooner, that someone should know who u are and know how close are we and how are we, if that particular person can't accept it then LEAVE, but not you...........................................



im sorry cos i always put u in situation by which u need to choose. im just too much... too much for you to bear........



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