ITS LIKE A TSUNAMI ALL OF A SUDDEN

Its been a long time since i blog. HAHHA. Have been busy with school and projects and projects and projects. Im so exhausted already from staring at those stupid computer which just do as i want them to. STUPID COMPUTERS!



There's so much thing happening while im away. Those people who wants to bring us down, back off! Dont think that u will succeed in doing that, cos im not going to let it happen! If u thing you have what it takes to bring us down. then you are wrong! AND PEOPLE!! PLEASE LAH EHH WAKE UP!! ARE YOU BLIND OR WHAT? CAN'T DIFFERENTIATE BETWEEN GEMS AND STONE. URGH!! WAKE UP BEFORE ME MYSELF WAKE U GUYS UP.!!!!! IM GOING TO SLAP YOU GUYS FACE IF U GUYS STILL CAN'T SHAKE THAT FEELING OFF! SORRY TO SAY BUT YOU GUYS ARE KIND OF STUPID!!


and to fadlie voguelicious, stay strong boy. I know u can pull it through. u got VOGUELICIOUS behind you. they'll lead ur way out im sure. they are bunch of helpful and kind hearted people. those are typical guys who say i love you but dont mean a thing. get me? u'll get the right one soon. don't worry. STAY STRONG BRO!! you have my support.


I have not been sleeping well. exam projects etc. i need space for myself. but i dont have any!! omg! i need a break. lambat siol duit nak masok. i wanna go shopping for new clothes! pants! and boots!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! someone please bring me for shopping!! :'( mums concealer running out!!


I LOVE MY FAMILY,
I LOVE 30T,
I LOVE ISAAC,KIKIN,KAK Z,KAK SERI AND FIS
I LOVE LINA
I LOVE DIYANAH
I LOVE KHAIRUDDIN
I LOVE ALL
I LOVE YOU!


MWAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
BABY, I LOVE YOU!!(you know who)
:)

After the flood, ITS LIKE A TSUNAMI ALL OF A SUDDEN

Pilling eyes.

I need my sleep!! Gimme space, gimme bed, gimme pillow. Eye bags getting blacker. But thanks to concealer and foundation. Urgh. Im sorry if i didnt really entertain you for the few night. Im just tired. But for the sake of you, i wouldnt even mind. :) Cos you know why...... mwaaahhh..


Today siti hakim and nas VOGUE. Going for Song of The Sea. They are so going to enjoy it. Enjoy ur day guys today. :)


Today there's no dance practice. Go home straight after school. Project is done FINALLY. can relax. a bit only..


and ya, what a torturous day yesterday. dance wasnt bad, but doing the split thingy. URGHHH! can cry sia. my right leg seems to be very loose and cramp sey. hard to walk.
must do everyday so that can really do a perfect split. Siti succeed in doing the split. only me uhh, 80 percent split. =.=.


thats all for today. gonna miss you. like alot. mwaaahhh.
miss 30T already.
mwaaahhhhhhh!!!

up and down

have a prac at esplanade underground. so tiribg but i feel good. radiation was there. hheehhee. hmm. prac till 7 and then get ready to go for dinner at marina square. i ate nasi ayam penyet. it is so spicy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! urgh but nice though....



happy valentines day all my love ones..............
thanks for everything that u have done for me, my up and down.....



another thing that i would like to voice out is bout feeling. i really sux at love. really. devotion. too much when i love someone. but dare to take the risks. even though if it end with a cry......
cant stop seeing and cant stop looking at you who am refering to.
haizzzzz.crying crying crying. thats all that i can do. i know not much love can be given to me cos there's a reason and i know it. but urghhh...... i just love you................ i just.... ......
nevermind.....


not really in the mood to blog....................................................................................

GOOD FOR NOTHING!!

School is fun with the right people to mix with. But then, sometimes my parents are right. 'Dorang tu stakat kawan ketawer je'.
Where are they when i need help with my project. How biased can they be. They will only help people who is close to them. WHAT THE F___ PEOPLE?!! U guys really sux u know that? U guys can be nice but u guys can be pain in the ass too.



I just don't what to say to you guys. You guys only help only those who is in ur clan is it?!! WTH AGAIN.


Not refering to all but these 1 group. URGH!! I just find u guys biased. And you, ur joking are harsh sometimes.


U call these good friend. NOT I GUESS!! Good friends help each other OKAY!! You guys urself can't define GOOD FRIEND. IM HERE STRUGGLING WHILE YOU GUYS ALREADY GOOD AT WHATEVER WE ARE DOING. BUT WHERES THE HELP I ALWAYS NEEDED. OUH.. U GUYS WANNA SEE ME DROP LOW RIGHT. U GUYS WANNA SEE U GUYS GRADUATE TOGETHER WITH EACH OTHER WITHOUT ME.


And watch the mouth. u guys aint perfect in attitude wise. SO SHUT UR MOUTH AND REFLECT IN THE MIRROR!!


Thanks guys. SO MUCH FOR GOODFRIEND!! PFFFFFTTTTTTTTTT!!!!



If u guys dont want to help me in whatever i do, then find. U can keep how things are....:)

:) MWAAAHHH

h's back people. HAHA! im having a hard time trying to put song in my blog. WTF. 'HTML ERROR'? It is so complicated sey. I just suck in these stuff. 'I know i am' =.=


Ouh, I LOVE MY 30T. Mwaaaahhhhhh!! AND NOT FORGETTING YOU BABY. MWAAAHHHH!! and i miss MOOMOO. hahha!!



Cut my hair and i feel sucky, i dont know why. Dont really what to blog about. Everything seems normal today yet much more happier. :)



I wanna sleep. Sleepy. I need my sleep. Eye bag piling up. I NEED MUM'S CONCEALER TO COVER THOSE EYE BAG!!!!!!!!!!



Goodnyte love ones. MWAAAAAAHHHHH BABY!!
love you always!

IM SO GONNA MISS YOU.

Have not been updating for quite sometime. Reason? Laziness dtrike and kind of not in the mood.


Love should makes us more stronger. But it makes me weak. I dont know why but am weak. :'(



Have been crying quite a lot these days. Devoted too much to em. But i know i am. Cos i never receive this kind of treatment for quite sometime. H gave me everything that i need. H always there whenever i need em. IM REALLY REALLY FEELING DEVOTED RIGHT NOW. Am not afraid of anything else but just one thing scares me alot. ALOTTT!! which is losing em. Im really2 scared. :'( What if he just leave me alone without even telling me?????? :'(




But i know that h isn't mine. But i want u to know that im YOURS. Maybe h couldnt be mine ever, but im yours. Do whatever you want to me, inside out of mine is yours. REALLLYYYYYY.......



I dont care what you wanna do to me, but pleasssssseee, dont ever leave me alone.



I can really have eye cancer sey from crying. HAHAHA.


Just a simple msg from em can really brighten my day.


H always make me smile and laugh. And i miss those time even a few minutes ago meeting em. WTF. Im sorry dear if i always make you sick and tired, mad when my dumbness possesses me. im really sorry cos i always did. :'(


i always needed u. i do i do i do!!!! can't stop thinking bout you.
to tell you the truth, i cried every single day. i dont know why but i misses u BADDDDLLLLYYYYYYYYYYY even just met u. Spending time 1 whole day is never enough for me........... :'( :'(




DONT LEAVE MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE..................

I pity HAKIM!

I pity hakim alot, seriously alot. I think i have gone through what he have gone through. And i KNOW, it's DAMN PAINFUL. You can cry for like evryday. Maybe its his first time and he can't get over it yet. You gonna be strong soon. Dont worry. Hold on to my words.



....................... :'(




I dont know why, but upon reading his blog, it seems that i can feel him. I broke down in tears. The suffering for a 16 year old kid, in a relationship. And it is his 1st going-to-be-relationship.
HAIIZZZZ.



Adik...


I know how u feel. Having to leave someone that u love most, more than anything, seems like the worst thing that ever happen to you. I know how stingy the pain is. It can last for a long time. But it will heal soon. 'Hendak seribu daya, taknak seribu daley' when there's a will, there's a way. Im sure that someone doesnt plan about doing this to you. It just fate. Its the way of life. When u love that someone too much, that someone may not or may leave u. Its normal. I experience that a lot of time my dear hakim......


Trust me, u will be strong one day...........





You know u can always talk to me about this.



Take care adik. Abang will always be here, selagi abang maseh hidop. Whats the use of being the olders but cant help you. Except when im really damn busy lah. But im going to help adik no matter what.


Dont worry too much k.




MWAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!

serve me right.

Dad found out that i didnt attend school for quite sometime. Letter from school were send to my house. Dad was SUPER mad and he wanted me to stop dancing. At that moment......




I CRIED AGAIN. wtf! what's wrong with me! haha.
I don't want to quit dancing. I just started back sey.




Dad ask me to go home but i don't want to. And i decided not to go hme at first. But Him and siti advice me to go home. And because i love them i decidded to went home.



I thought im going to get beaten up, but end up cumer bobal je. I listen to him and say what he ask me to say to dad. And ya, it works. Thanks honey. Mwwaaaahhhhhhh.




Now i back again! Hakim wasnt feeling well today. He ate 6 panadol okay people! He crazy or what sia! Tapi sempat g bugis beli boot. Halim, kane, hakim da beli boot!! Same like mine. Halim nyer ader buckle. Axactly like mine. HAHAH.



Halim inspired to be as vogue as abang fadh ehh? HAHHA!!


You kids arh, are so funny u know.
And i keep imagining how hakim will look like when we wear hot pants and boot. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH. Vogue habes!!



Thats all for now. Gonna update again soon ya. take care people. MWWWAAAAHHHH!!

For you.

There's so much life I've left to live
And this fire's burning still
When I watch you look at me
I think I could find the will
To stand for every dream
And forsake the solid ground
And give up this fear within
Of what would happen if they ever knew
I�m in love with you

cause I'd surrender everything
To feel the chance to live again
I reach to you
I know you can feel it to
We'd make it through
A thousand dreams I still believe
I'd make you give them all to me
I'd hold you in my arms and never let go
I surrender

I know I can't survive
Another night away from you
You're the reason I go on
And now I need to live the truth
Right now, there's no better time
From this fear I will break free
And I'll live again with love
And no the they can't take that away from me
And they will see...

�cause I'd surrender everything
To feel the chance to live again
I reach to you
I know you can feel it too
We'd make it through
A thousand dreams I still believe
I'd make you give them all to me
I'd hold you in my arms and never let go
I surrender

Every night's getting longer
And this fire is getting stronger, babe
I'll swallow my pride and I'll be alive
Did you hear my call
I surrender all

cause I'd surrender everything
To feel the chance to live again
I reach to you
I know you can feel it too
We'd make it through
A thousand dreams I still believe
I'd make you give them all to me
I'd hold you in my arms and never let go
I surrender

Right here, right now
I give my life to live again
I'll break free, take me
My everything I surrender all to you

Right here, right now
I give my life to live again
I break free, take me
My everything I surrender all to you

I SURRENDER.





specially for someone that i really love.
I LOVE YOU BABY, DON'T LEAVE.

SIGH SIGH SIGH.

Was early to school today. Only slept for an hour. Slept at 5 and woke up at 6. So tired. So damn sleepy. Wasn't really energitic today in school. Sleep during Shanta's class. Lose my wallet, and lose my 8gb thumbdrive. Haizz. Bad luck!!

Now i can only meet em on every friday saturday and sunday maybe. I can't be selfish. I can't keep thinking bout myself and just me. He'is working and must be SUPER tired. Yet i drag him to spend time. URGH. How selfish can i be!

I hope, by sacrifising my time spend, he is happier and can rest well. Haiz.
Blog again lata, can't take it anymore. Need a break to peace my mind.......


MWAAAAAAHHHHH.
MISSES YOU.

MWAAAHHHH BABY!

HEY YAWWW! Stay at home today. Wasn't boring, what a surprise. HAHA! My cheek gonna get a 6 pack soon. Cos SOMEONE keep making me laugh with those lame but yet damn funny jokes. HAHA! Really love the company i get today. REALLY!

Dyed my hair again!! OMG! Mum was like rambot kau macam burung ape entah? HAHA! Mum its only dying hair not piercing right?

Woke up at 2 tadi. Really damn tired. Maklomlah tak tidor kan da braper hari! HAHAH! Tapi tak tidor, aku happy. Manage to do some stuff. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!

NOW, im missing hem. Have to wait dont know when till i meet em again. AWWWWWW!!! Imiss you already BOODDDOOOOHHHH!!!!!! Mwaaahhhh.

& & & Im so excited about the 21 feb competition. Really can't wait sey. Im nervous but yet proud of my crew. We evolve. Not really strong yet, but better than the last time. HAHA! Since someone left. THANK GOD YOU LEFT. :)

Im just proud of every single one of them. C'MON GUYS, MOVE FORWARD NOT BACKWARDS PEOPLE!! GO GO GO!!!

and to wawa, you're so brave. MWAAHHHH!!


I GOT CARPET BURN ON MY ELBOW!! THANKS TO YANIE!! HAHA!
I MISS MOO MOO. :(
moo moo DATE ME PLEASSSEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!=.=

"I can be chinese OKAY, but i can do KRUMPING" haha!!
cute-yet-funny-but-no-link girl. HAHA, mwaaaaahhhh!


peace out people.i miss you guys. And you,
I MWAAAAAHHHHH YOU LAH BODOHH. :D